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It's been a while. I have some updates.

In the wonderful world of updates, DLB is not dead and has been discharged from hospital to rehab to regain strength, etc. So that's good.

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What is making you smile these days? Create a top 10 list of anything you want to talk about.

1. Getting my car fixed for inspection yesterday, they found an expensive-to-fix but dangerous thing going wrong with the struts. I will soon be much safer on the road, which is good, even if it is money I wanted to spend doing a dozen other things.
2. My people are functioning and doing mostly okay despite The Horrors. Thank you for taking care of yourselves, and me, and each other. It makes me so relieved and proud and grateful to know you.
3. I am doing well at school.
4. Mom and Step-Dad are doing well as far as their physical health, and Mom’s gigantic bruise on her thigh from falling through the hole in the front porch is mostly healed now.
5. Step-Dad washed my car and it’s all shiny and cute again.
6. I am reading a smidge of BatFamily crack again, now that I have a bit of free time, and it makes me smile, giggle, and sometimes meanly snicker at Batman’s expense.
7. The couch-napping quilt is over 1/3 of the way done!
8. I made good progress on fixing Merlin’s stockings during the summer break. They should be ready to send by the end of July. 🤞
9. I have a call to make today to chatter with

nyyki about the ten thousand things.
10. I get to talk to Merlin tomorrow night, with any luck.

Wants and needs

I want hugs. I want

nyyki hugs and

genderjumper hugs and fuck it if I don’t want Ghost hugs, too.

I want to not have to go back to school, and not to be still studying for a final exam for A&P.

I want to dress up fancy to go to brunch with my cousin, Doctor JT, and her kids.

I need to not abandon my studies even if I am feeling a bit frazzled. Even thougm

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I just gave myself a headache by cracking my neck too hard, and then helped moderate a Virtual Accessible Pride event YouTube livestream for the first time. It was A Lot but I am still here. We only had one troll, too, so that part was cool.

The You Are Not So Smart Podcast did an episode a while back about cultures of genius vs cultures of growth that I listened to this week, and it is rearranging some stuff in my head in helpful ways, explaining why people do the frustrating thing where they compete to tear each other down because in a lot of cultures I was raised in, only the Single Most Correct person got any respect. And I was raised to do this, and managed to train myself out of it once I understood how nonsensical it was, but I didn't understand why it was that way or how we got there. So I will be having thinky thoughts.

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5 wants 5 needs

1. I want to not have a headache. I need better health.
2. I want AO3 to not be down for maintenance right now. I need entertainment when I have pain and dysfunction.
3. I want to not have to worry about whether I’m communicating clearly enough to overcome other people’s bad—faith takes and will to misunderstand me. I need to not be judged by people whose brains don’t work like mine.
4. I want Mom to stop smoking. I need to worry less about her and it not reassuring at all that she has to be on blood thinners bc she won’t give up nicotine.
5. I want to have a fancy TENS unit that can give my body sensations to a doctor ( @or other third parties) for the purpose of getting them to believe me about medical bullshit. I need people who disregard how much I hurt or how tired I am to have to put up or shut up.